Wednesday, September 9, 2009

A Glimer of Motivation

Last night at around 9:30 or so I had a small moment where I actually got motivated to do something other than sit on my couch knitting a stealth project and watching non-cable television. I actually thought about working on stuff for the store. And I read some blogs and got a little inspired with upcoming projects. So, I'm hopeful that I will break out of this shell soon and get things actually moving.

There are so many things I want to say about where my life is right now. Things have shifted really dramatically from one end of the spectrum to the other in the past month. So much so that other people have started to notice it. Which bothers me because I'm a rather private (at least emotionally private) person. I'm not sure how to fix things which is compounding my problems. I'm a terribly impatient person but I feel like now I must wait on soooooo many things before I can move forward! It's a lesson I don't want to learn right now but I'm trying to find some positive things to hold on to. Like knitting mundane things and dyeing yarn :)

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Blah, Blah, Blah

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Well...I've found something that I like knitting again. And it's totally mindless. And I totally cannot show you because it's secret gift knitting. But it's looking good and I guess I needed mindless. No, I know I needed mindless knitting. Why...?

Work is crazy. Some days things go really well, not like a well oiled machine but at least we're headed in that direction. Then there are the "other days". The days where my pulsing headache starts around 11:00 and continues until 4:30. The days were nothing seems to go like it should and every child seems to have ADD. Today was the latter. I wanted to put my key through my eye and I was snapping at everyone about anything and everything. So mindless knitting is good to keep the crazy eye twitches away.

I've also been really busy after work. Lessons to teach, random meetings, run here, do that, fetch this...Maybe a little too busy. I'm learning that the word "no" is ok, that I will not be fired if I don't go to the uptenth billionth staff development, and that I don't have to go to every single standing weekly function. If something better comes up I can do that instead.

Another thing I've been partaking in (which, coincidentally adds to the busy-ness, but in a way I'm enjoying) is social time. I'll admit I haven't taken much time to hang out with some of my friends outside of the places I would normally see them (church, work, etc.) so I'm trying to get out with them more. And I'm liking it. So I think I will keep doing more of that for now.

Speaking of social time...I'm having a bunch of friends over on Sunday to hang out since I have Monday off for Labor Day. This is both simultaneously debilitatingly stressful and incredibly motivating. Today I was stressed but hopefully by tomorrow I will be motivated again so I can get this apartment cleaned.